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I haven't felt close to God for about 3 years now. I pray and i pray and i ask and i even beg and nothing comes out of it. I just feel as if either there's nothing there or he's deliberatly ignoring everything i say. It never used to be like this, i still love him so much, but i feel so empty. My friend has the gift of the holy spirit and tongues, and i just feel so abandoned. I don't know what i'm doing wrong, but i don't want to carry on like this, its really geting me down and i don't know what to do anymore. Ive almost given up on trying to talk to him now, i just feel like im not talking to anyone anymore. Sorry for blurting all this out, please could you pray for me. The thing I want most in the whole world would be to experience God or even feel close to [sign in to see URL] far i feel as empty [sign in to see URL] can be really.
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Emily,

I would like to start by saying that I am not a pastor and I don't want to give any false sense of authority. I just pray what I write brings a helpful perspective to your quarrel...

I know somewhat of what you’re going through, I think everyone does. You must remember that everyone is blessed with different Spiritual Gifts. You may be so focused on experiencing what you see in others that you are hardened to how God wants to talk to you. Make sure that you are not seeking the gifts you want, but you are waiting on the Lord to show you the gifts He has given you.

So often I find myself coming back to the same place I felt the Spirit before, but He is nowhere to be found. Day after day I come back to the same place, by the same prayer, with the same song or verse, and all I find is a thirst for something else. This happens when we ritualize God. If it is no longer about Him but how WE want to feel, then our acts of worship become self-seeking. Remember that in prayer and worship He should be leading.

Finally, I want to remind you that we are to wait for the Lord and be on His schedule. Israel spent a long time in Egypt with only the promise of God’s deliverance, only to leave and wander the desert for 40 years with only the promise of God’s rest for their children. Then they were captured again and held captive for 150 or so years by Babylon, with only the promise of God’s redemption. Then they had to wait another 400 years for the Messiah. The point is that in all this waiting, the Lord smiled upon those who were faithful and prayed to him persistently, even when they didn’t hear his voice.

I can go on but I think the answers you are looking for will be better found in the Bible. Psalm 27 is a good one for times like this (Seeking the Lord but finding no answer). Also, read though the book of James, specifically chapters 1 and 5, and let God speak to you what He wants you to hear. Also, get involved in some fellowship ASAP (outside of the internet). We were never meant to face this alone.

Please, feel free to respond to what I’ve said here and let us know if it is way off the mark from what you are going through.

God Bless,
Jordan
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Thank you, that actually did help a lot. But i think 3 years is a long time to wait for him and at the moment i really really need him now because im going to have to make some radical decisions very soon and i would like him to guide me through them. I know we all have to be patient and wait for him but i just want to say one thing.
My friend i was talking about [sign in to see URL] had gone through this as well and so one day she got fed up and asked god that she is ready to serve him and stuff and she doesn't want to wait anymore(she had been waiting about 3 years as well) and then a few days later she got those gifts. I don't mind if i don't get anything, all i want is just to know he is there for me, but nothing ever happens. And i mean, ive told him this and i said i think im losing faith can you please help me to strengthen it and stuff, and still i get nothing. Anyway, thank you for your advice, it's really helpfull.
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Emily,

I was doing some reading last night and I started thinking some more about this. I came up with, (was blessed with), two truths:

In Phillipians 4 Paul reminds us to not be anxious about anything. Now this seems like a likely thing for Paul to say, but difficult to put into practice. He goes on to say "But in everything, in prayer and petition, WITH THANKSGIVING, present your requests to God"

I highlight the 'with thanksgiving' part becuse this has a pretty interesting implication: In light of the Lord's soverignty and His promis to 'finish what He started' we are to, by faith, thank him in advance for what He plans to do in us. We are told, and shoud therfore KNOW that He will train us to completion, even if we don't recognize it, and in turn, give Him thanksgiving.

This is such a radically different perspective from what we see in the world. We never thank people for what we hope they will do, becuase we have no faith in the world or the people in it. We have to look to God in the complete opposite way.

The second point I have is that God knows you and DESIGNED you perfectly for His purpose. He knows how much you can take before you crack, even better than you do. He designed each of us to respond to stress/trials for our good and He will execute perfect training in our lives, so long as we are seeking Him.

While this kind of relates to my previous post, I thought these points were worthy of more focus.

God Bless,
Jordan
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I read what you advised me to read and it helped a lot-so thank you! I've actually felt at peace lately and my faith is stengthening(sp?) once again. Actually today a few events took place which implicated(to me)that held a message from God. It may sound a bit silly but through these actions i got reassurance that i am not on my own and God is there for me to help me. Which is great! Also thank you for your last message-i had not though of that! But it does make sense really. You've really helped me so thank you once again
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You will be in my prayers.
God Bless!!
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